As i tend to say “life sucks and then you die”, and I for one think that this is a great thing, at least for the dyin’ part. Imagine how damn stupid it would be to live in this world forever. Good God! when every thing that you try to do, every single gesture…… word, blows out in your face, may it be by misinterpretation or just plain intended harm. People are lying everywhere and at anytime, and talking about feelings that just change like the weather, God damn… I’m wondering how i made it this far without doing something ridiculously stupid and uncontrolled. I’ve got one thing to say… FINE (which is a censoring word for FUCK YOU), I realized that it is way beyond stupid, to try to “play” someone else than who you are just to please or to impress somebody, and now that i think of it it’s just plain pathetic. I have met some people which consider that the character of a person is that which is displayed twords other. Well… what i consider to be the character that defines a man are the things that he tries to hide the most, the things that capture his deepest thoughts and feelings. For all that i know, only an insane person can actually be 100% sincere, a person that has no regard twords hurting someone, saying things that are unapropriate or painful, but that’s just me :-J. In order to get along with my pretty list of things that i think that blow in this world i will talk about the never ending change of the so called “love” feeling. This is the thing that eludes me the most, whilst love is everywhere, and its perfectly understandable when talking about a mother’s love or a friendly love between two persons or any kind of love except…. EXCEPT the one between a man and a woman, the kind where they fall in love. I’ll be damned if there is anything more uncertain than that. As i’ve went through life i have felt love, the kind that “makes mountains move and makes days fly like seconds ” and the more important (‘couse that’s what’s left for you to indulge into, at the end)…. the same kind that rips you apart and makes you wish you were never born. I can not say that i do not enjoy being in love, it’s the greatest thing that i will probably feel in my entire lifetime, but you can not dismiss that it’s the most painful and tearing feeling that anyone has ever laid their heart upon. The sole problem with love is in the concept itself, two persons, that feel the same thing and care of one another and do anything in their power to make the other happy. I dare not think another moment at the brutal collapse of one’s whole world when the significant other, the person more important than life itself, decides that “the love is gone” (stupid song). The word to describe the sensation created by the significant other at those words…. well… that clearly does not exist. I truly beg of those that care not to hurt themself to avoid such things as love. As we all know that all is “until next time” and “this time, it’s special” , i only suggest that for the next time: be more careful, and do not let the feelings cloud your judgement to much, fore one moment of cold hard judgement will spare you of endless moments of pain.

With much love and sympathy to those that feel completely torn apart by their much significant other